“Humans are most illogical”. I always loved that line because it’s so true. Emotions drive the human being, and emotions, if not kept in check, can sometimes be detrimental to ones well being. I think most of my life, I have been driven by emotions I neither understood, nor could I completely control. I’ve always had great difficulty in social situations. I tend to come on to strong. I have a driven personality, and strive to get the most out of things in a short period of time. I don’t work well with others as I tend to think quickly and expect everyone to keep up. Well that’s just not the case. Everyone is different.
I can come off as a “know it all” sometimes, but that is far from the truth. My personality type is called an ISTJ. http://www.personalitypage.com/ISTJ.html I can score pretty high on an IQ test, but fail miserably under social pressure. Maybe part of that is because I spent so much time alone during the formative years of my childhood. I had few friends and never participated in any sports in school. My folks didn’t like the idea of the strong competition involved. I think that was a mistake, but I don’t fault them for standing buy their convictions. Had I been exposed to more social situations, with their inherent ups and downs, things may have been different.
What’s funny is I do very well in a customer service or sales position if I truly believe in the product or service. I worked for a lawn service company years ago, and sold lawn care to people in Maine. We did this in February, and over the phone. You couldn’t even see your lawn! As I spent more time with several companies in this field, I became bored and disillusioned with the process and the people I worked for and left. We always spoke about how we “tailored” our service to each customer, but really it was pretty much the same for all. I won’t say it was dishonest, but maybe a little deceptive. That’s just not me. Most of my jobs since then have been solitary in nature, and more comfortable for me as I can deliver what I say I will.
Now as I continue my quest for my inner peace, I like to reflect back on the mistakes I have made. That gives me allot to think about! I think we all strive to become better people. Learning from your mistakes is a big part of that. Being able to better read your own emotional state will only increase your ability to interact with others. In my case, I need to learn to apply a little more logic, and allot less emotion. And so the search for Spock continues.