My Bullet List

1. Why is it the best ideas for writing happen when I’m driving? I can’t keep stopping to write them down, and by the time I’m done for the day, the words that felt right are lost. (I blame the 80’s!). I think I’m going to buy a voice recorder so I stop forgetting!

2. When I started this blog I just wanted to vent my feelings. Now it’s become something much bigger for me. I have started to confront my “Demons” that have been plaguing me for years. I’m coming to grips with my self doubt and why its been the single largest deterrent to my happiness.

3. For years I have started something, began to find success, and then ran into hardships. When that happens, my mind tells me I’m just bored with it, and I should just walk away and find something else to do. I felt that last night laying in my bunk. It was so strong it felt like I was having an anxiety attack. I know now it’s just self doubt controlling me. I MUST break the cycle if I’m ever going to be truly happy.

4. Several people have said I should write a book, that everyone has at least one in them. I think that’s what I’m doing on this blog. Writing my autobiography one paragraph at a time as it happens. I can’t see myself writing fiction, with characters and dialogue, trying to keep the story interesting all through the book. As Osyth said, I write from the heart and my personal experience. If that’s true, then the poems are a reflection of my soul.

5. I find myself falling into the trap of watching for comments and likes on my posts, and being disappointed when I don’t see what I think I should. It’s such a silly, almost stupid reaction. I need to remember why I’m doing this, what really matters!

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12 thoughts on “My Bullet List

  1. 1. We all fall into that trap with social media … looking for the likes, begging for the comments You are right to try and keep the urge under control. It, in itself is anxiety making.
    2. Get that voice recorder. I got one last year because my problem was having a head clear enough for the creativity to flow whenever I was out hiking with The Bean or driving in my car. It has transformed the process for me.
    3. A book can take many forms. Yours is unfurling beautifully on this blog through your musings and your poems … straight from the heart mister and it works πŸ™‚

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  2. This post is spot on – I totally understand where you are coming from. I use a voice recorder on my cell phone when I have an idea or having something interesting to write about – I record it for later. Your life is a story worth writing about – so keep writing. πŸ™‚

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  3. I thought about the voice recorder when I read that first bit, it’d be a great way to document too. Everybody falls into that trap in case you were wondering. I hope you continue to write, even if you don’t get a single comment. We’re ‘liking’ and we’re watching (in a non-creepy non-stalkery way of course!! ) πŸ™‚

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  4. That’s the beauty of a cooking blog I guess.. Sure, I’d like tons of followers, comments, likes and even a few haters.. but, I already know I like the recipes..
    And I measure my blog by the taste of the food and the accuracy of the recipe as I type it..
    You and all other blogs who open the door to your lives and intermost feelings, its an easy trap to measure by followers and likes.. But I’m glad you see that as a self defeating trap.. Social media is a fickle mistress.. It has mood swings (trends) and bandwagons going to n fro catching and passing blogs and issues, with regard to real measure.. Don’t ever let social media get you down because by the nature of the beast, it will at a moments notice..

    Super idea for the recorder πŸ‘

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  5. One book is kind of limiting. What about like 3 or 4? Perhaps a coffee table book with pictures from your travels. Those sunrises and sunsets could fill many pages. Maybe a book on traveling with Vinny with photos of him. Poetry could be another. Also, your dad comes to mind. Maybe a memoir or just stories about your parents? I remember that post where you talked about their home and had pictures. That was a great post. Don’t let one book sell you short. There are endless ideas… πŸ™‚

    PS I was having like/comment issues there for a bit. It passed. πŸ™‚

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