Cause it’s a bittersweet symphony this life
Trying to make ends meet, you’re a slave to the money then you die
I’ll take you down the only road I’ve ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah
No change, I can’t change, I can’t change, I can’t change,
but I’m here in my mold, I am here in my mold
But I’m a million different people from one day to the next
I can’t change my mold, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
The Verve – Bitter Sweet Symphony
I’m sitting in a familiar haunt…the Walmart at Van Wert Ohio. I did something tonight I have not done in years. I took Vinny out, and I laid down in the grass and just closed my eyes. I took away one of my senses, and let the others take over my reality. I hear the cars on the highway as they move past. I can place them in my mind, right where my eyes would see them just by the sound. I can smell the cut grass, and the damp soil after last nights rain. After 5 minutes, I open my eyes and see more stars than I have seen in years. I vow to myself, I will do this every week from now on. I had forgotten what I was missing.
There’s so many simple things in this life that can bring you so much joy. Something like the morning dew glistening on flowers, the smell of the breeze pulling the scent of flowering trees to your nose. The feel of the suns first rays, the life giving force that makes it all happen. All of this is free for the taking, if you stop and allow it to happen. You loved this as a child, when did you stop?
You stopped when life got in the way. When the house payment, the insurance and the babysitter took precedence. You were drawn in to what society considers the “Normal” way of life. You followed what most people think will bring them happiness. Is that working for you?
If it is, than I am happy for you. You have found your Val Halla. If not, what are you looking for? Are you even sure what it will look like? I’m still working on my vision of contentment. The point in my life where I have found the balance of need and want, happy and sad, solitude and companionship. The point when I wake up every day with a feeling of hope and peacefulness, a focus of purpose in this life that truly is a bitter sweet symphony.