Now everybody’s got advice they just keep on givin’
Doesn’t mean too much to me
Lots of people out to make-believe they’re livin’
Can’t decide who they should be, whoa
I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind
Boston – Peace Of Mind
I’m lying in my bunk here in Bangor Maine. It’s been a nice day, warm temps, sunny skies and I finished all my domestic chores before I go back on the road. We had a company party today to reward the best drivers in the company for 500,000 or more miles of accident free driving. That is quite an accomplishment! I was recognized for winning Employee of the month for February, and it is nice to know some people recognize the hard work we put into our jobs. Truck driving is a very hard job both physically and mentally.
Tomorrow, I go to see my father at the VA hospital, then down to see my mom and sister. It’s very hard to see your parents approaching the end of their lives. All the health issues, the frustration they face every day not being able to do the simple things that we take for granted. You wish you could do more, but there is an end to everything, and I hope they can at least have true peace of mind at this point in their lives.
I think we all strive for the same. What that picture looks like is different for all of us. For me, it’s not anything you can touch, see, smell or hear. It’s a mindset, a feeling of ultimate serenity in a vast ocean of unsettled dreams. Feeling at peace with myself and the earth. The understanding that I am not above it all, but rather just a small piece of the entire planet. A cog in the wheel.
I think I can see on the horizon, the goal I am striving for. It’s still a little blurry, but slowly coming into focus. It revolves around simplicity in all things. Removing clutter from my surroundings, my thoughts and my ambitions. Stripping away the things that are just superficial images of what makes life worth living. Dropping the irrational pursuit of a make-believe living.
I’ve decided who I should be. I should be true to me and nobody else. I know in my heart what will make me happy. I think we sometimes suppress what we know to be true in the pursuit of being “Accepted” by others or trying to “Fit in” with this group or that. I am done with that, I am Weird Guy With The Dog, and I’m happy with who I have become.
I see my future surrounded by beautiful sunrises and sunsets. Ocean vistas and rocky shorelines. Like minded people with a true reverence for all things free for the taking. A lust for traveling and exploring the wonders of nature. Filling my mind with visions of peaceful shores and wondrous creatures, instead of asphalt highways and disgruntled people. I just want to live.
I will spend the rest of my life pursuing something bigger that the next I phone, the next fashion trend. No more do I care about a new car or fancy watch. I will strive to live a life worthy of the gift that it is.