“he found contentment in living a simple life
in the country on the sea!”
What does that word mean to you? Do you see it comprised as a singular moment, or do you apply it to a more broad sense of well being? Have you ever thought about your vision of contentment, or are you to busy with a lifestyle you hope leads you there? I wish I had thought of this a long time ago.
Contentment can mean many things to many people. I guess it’s a very personal thing if you spend some time thinking about what your hopes and dreams are. As for me, I’m just starting to fully grasp where my path leads, what my chosen future holds.
I still have moments of fear and apprehension when I consider the implications of buying a sailboat and living on the water. I still live with self doubt. I wonder if I’m trying to live a pipe dream, or can I really make this work. There are thousands of people doing the very same thing, so I know it can be done, but am I capable of making it happen? Can I find the inner strength and will to see it through?
I have tried and failed many times in my life. I’ve made poor decisions, listened to bad advise, and generally allowed the fears in myself and of others interfere with my ability to complete the tasks I set out to do. I think all along I was searching for my vision of contentment without ever completely thinking it through. I don’t think I ever set reasonable goals to achieve. As we all know, without measured goals you cant track your progress. Then you can get distracted and overwhelmed, and sometimes just give up. Vision lost.
I can see my vision starting to take shape. It revolves around a simple premise…self sufficiency and simplicity in all things. I’ve tried too hard in my life to achieve a goal that was never really my dream. I fell prey to all the hype and marketing that molds most peoples thinking about what achievement is. I allowed other peoples visions to blind me from seeing my own. I want to live free.
What does that mean to me? It means free to move when I want, free to work when I want, free to live without fear that someone can take away what I have worked so hard for. Free from debt and all the stress that goes with it. Away from crowds of people and the drag they exert on my psyche. Free to explore other countries and lifestyles other than the rampant consumerism that controls most people in the world. Free to be me.
I’m sure there are many people just like me. Tired of the drama, the hateful gestures, the stupid remarks, the ignorant attitudes, and the general bad manners of so many today. Everybody out for themselves with no regard for their impact on others. The more I am engrossed in this world, the more I become one in the same.
It’s a natural progression towards an uncivilized society that takes individual feelings out of the equation, and replaces them with terms like “Social Justice” or “Political Correctness”. Labels someone with a different view as a bigot or a homophobe, just because they believe in something morally different. All the while preaching how they are “Progressive” in their thinking, and to think otherwise is the height of stupidity. So much for their open minded approach.
I wonder if there is any hope for a renaissance of middle ground? A place where clear minded people come together and truly discuss what’s at stake here. A time when people stop discriminating against others, but allow for apposing lines of thought without name calling. Would not that be a real vision of contentment?