Crystal Ball

I used to like to walk the straight and narrow line
I used to think that everything was fine
Sometimes I’d like to sit and gaze for days through sleepless dreams
All alone and trapped in time
All alone and trapped in time

I wonder what tomorrow has in mind for me
Or am I even in it’s mind at all
Perhaps I’ll get a chance to look ahead and see
Soon as I find myself a crystal ball
Soon as I find myself a crystal ball

Crystal Ball-Styx

If only they were real!  How simple would life be with one of those!  Or would it?  Yes, many pitfalls could be avoided, many heartaches bypassed, but are you sure that’s the best idea? Are not these experiences a part of who you are now?  Who would you be if you had all the answers?

No, I think the school of hard knocks is the best way to go through life.  There’s nothing like a mild burn to teach you about fire, a scraped knee to teach you to watch your step.  So many little lessons have been taught to us over our lives, even some we didn’t notice.  But how many times have done something you know is wrong, you recall the lesson learned, yet you do it anyway?  Why is that?

1.  ID.  the part of the psyche, residing in the unconscious, that is the source of instinctive impulses that seek satisfaction in accordance with the pleasure principle and are modified by the ego and the superego before they are given overt expression.

2.  EGO.
the part of the psychic apparatus that experiences and reacts to the outside world and thus mediates between the primitive drives of the id and the demands of the social and physical environment.

3.  SUPEREGO.  the part of the personality representing the conscience, formed in early life by internalization of the standards of parents and other models of behavior.  

4.  THE PLEASURE PRINCIPAL.  Freud contrasted the pleasure principle with the counterpart concept of the reality principle, which describes the capacity to defer gratification of a desire when circumstantial reality disallows its immediate gratification. In infancy and early childhood, the id rules behavior by obeying only the pleasure principle. People at that age only seek immediate gratification, aiming to satisfy cravings such as hunger and thirst, and at later ages the id seeks out sex.  Maturity is learning to endure the pain of deferred gratification when reality requires it. Freud argued that “an ego thus educated has become ‘reasonable’; it no longer lets itself be governed by the pleasure principle, but obeys the reality principle, which also, at bottom, seeks to obtain pleasure, but pleasure which is assured through taking account of reality, even though it is pleasure postponed and diminished”.

5.  THE REALITY PRINCIPAL. In Freudian psychology and psychoanalysis, the reality principle (German: Realitätsprinzip) is the ability of the mind to assess the reality of the external world, and to act upon it accordingly, as opposed to acting on the pleasure principle.  Allowing the individual to defer (put off) instant gratification, the reality principle is the governing principle of the actions taken by the ego, after its slow development from a “pleasure-ego” into a “reality-ego”: it may be compared to the triumph of reason over passion, head over heart, rational over emotional mind.

WOW! Now that’s a mouthful!  Wrap your head around that for a moment!  I’m no psychologist, though I play one in my own mind, but those 5 concepts are very intriguing.  They certainly explain alot don’t they!  The first 3 are simple to understand, almost common sense.  I think many people have a mixture of the last 2 depending on their intelligence, self awareness and situation in life. Poor impulse control would be another way to put it.  I raise my hand, guilty as charged.

I think we all have a built in “Crystal Ball” called:

1.  an inborn pattern of activity or tendency to action common to a given biological species.
2.  a natural or innate impulse, inclination, or tendency.

3.  a natural aptitude or gift:  an instinct for making money.
4.  natural intuitive power.

How many times has your “Gut” told you not to do something, and the feeling was correct.  Why then do we continue to ignore our instincts?  I think we all have instincts or intuition but we don’t consciously listen to it, trusting rather what appears to be rational in our often irrational mind.  We say to ourselves, “That can’t be” or “That doesn’t make sense.”    Yet when all is said and done, our instincts are most often the correct course of action.

Trusting your instincts seems to be a learned behavior.  You have to consciously consider the feeling with an open mind, you have to stop you irrational mind from dismissing it out of hand.  Nobody can talk us into stupid behavior better than ourselves!

My reason for this in depth study into my own mind is because I am trying to curb my lack of impulse control.  I’m trying to make the best decision about my future plans.  Anyone who has been reading my posts may see a pattern of thought that does not follow a straight line, it tends to go from the fast lane to the slow lane depending on the day.  Can you say, bipolar?  I have many thoughts of places to go, things to do, but no clear plan to do them all.  I think my last post was the turning point.

My instincts tell me to start small and see where that goes.  My gut tells me that once I purchase a sailboat, there’s no going back!  Once I have the freedom that it will accord me, I would never again be satisfied living on land.  The extent of my travels is yet to be fully determined, yet I feel I must take a serious chance at least once, or forever feel the sting of defeat.  I’ve had enough defeat in my life.


3 thoughts on “Crystal Ball

  1. And so moves forward, your dream.. These periodic evaluations and revaluations of how to proceed, is smart in my opinion.. Kind of like keeping the helm steady and true.. 😊

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