This was the 4th post I wrote on this blog. As I read these words again I still feel the same a year later. With the help of the friends I have now, the grip of my past is almost gone.
I have lived the last few years with tainted vision. My outlook an most things has been cynical and even hostile. I think part of that is the fact its only been ten years since I stopped using any “substances”. I agree with the science that says usage from a young age retards your emotional abilities. You tend to compartmentalize your problems instead of dealing with them at the time. All the pain and anguish, however small, will build up inside you. You throw a blanket over the problems and wait for a better time to think about it, but that time never comes. It’s a time bomb in your mind.
When you finally stop, HANG ON! The floodgates open and you remember things from long ago you had stored away, hoping to forget. You may be an adult, but it’s still allot to process. You go through all the…
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