Thank You 

How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I’m filled up
How about them transparent dangling carrots
How about that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time


The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down

How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping


Thank You – Alanis Morissette

When I was young and selfish I had no use for thankfulness. I had the world by the balls, one single squeeze and my will would come to pass. My mind was unbridled by the stupidity of foolish adults, unclouded with the brutality of realism. I knew what must be done and no one was going to stop me.

And then I woke up…

Thank you dad for being the man you were, even though I was to blind to see the wisdom of your words. You never backed down from your responsibilities no matter what. You were a great man and I didn’t deserve you.

Thank you mom for the strength you have shown throughout your life. Even with all that you have endured your steadfast manor and positive attitude are a reflection of the well rounded person I am striving to imitate.

Thank you Cheryl my sister for taking such good care of our mother. I’m so happy she has your help in the most vulnerable time of her life when the help of family is at it’s greatest need. I respect you greatly, even if you wont talk to me.

Thank you Greg my brother for all the times you stuck up for me as a child, all the days you made time for me, even when I got in the way. Though we have grown apart to some degree, I always look forward to your calls and our limited time together. You will always be with me.

Thank you Kathy my sister for all the times you took care of Cheryl and I when we were kids. Even though I don’t remember much about those years I know you were a caring and steady hand when mom needed the help. For your efforts you should hold your head up high and remember your brother is thinking of you.

Thank you David my brother for the fun times we had when I moved to Dallas to get to know you. Even though you decided to move away from the family and broke off contact many years ago, I hope you are doing well. I will come looking for you again soon.

Thank you John my brother in law. You are the only person in my life that has treated me the same no matter what. Through all the years I could count on you to help me when I needed it the most, and you always treated me with respect even if you didn’t agree with my lifestyle. That says alot about you and I have nothing but respect for you to.

Thank you Sheldon and Dave, Ryan and Alex, Andy and Scott and all the other outstanding people I work with. This company has been nothing but kind and generous to me in my time of need. They have bent over backwards to accommodate my situation with my folks without hesitation and I am in their debt. Now I may be able to repay that kindness to some degree in the near future and I wholeheartedly embrace the challenge. More on that as it unfolds!

Thank you to all the friends I have made in the blog world. Your encouragement and support has helped me open up more in the last 2 years than I have in the 50 before! It truly has been a blessing to “Unload” all of this from my mind and gain a better perspective.

And lastly, Thank you to me for realizing it was time to embrace who I am. No more hiding behind false bravado, trying to fit in with people I didn’t really agree with, living a lifestyle that led only to grief and sadness. Thank you for coming to terms with all the pain, some self inflicted, that I have been living with and realizing it’s really all part of what makes me who I am. I now like who I am. Understanding I can’t fix all I have done, just strive to be a better person with the time I have left, make a difference that is worthy of the gifts that were given to me. I am the Weird Guy With The Dog and I am happy about it!


24 thoughts on “Thank You 

  1. I echo Serendipitous Web Life … really that is beautifully expressed. And isn’t it GOOD to reach that point whenever you reach it that you can realise and rejoice in the gifts of others. The rear view is irrelevant – its the now and the here-forward that count and you are making it count.

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  2. Alex ?????? Just great, his head will get as big as the others you mentioned from work.. 😕
    But I have to agree, they all are a super special group of people that I respect and enjoy 😊
    We both are very fortunate to be where we are..
    Your post gives me warm fuzzies knowing your happy and well 😏

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      1. Uh oh, do you mean when Alex sees you he’s looking at future Alex 😰 😁

        Well Guy, I’ve not known you to build up a story for a let down, so this is exciting.. They do work hard to our benefit, more than any company I’ve driven for, it will be really nice to see them get a happy surprise 💛

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  3. Lease truck ? Or..
    Sailboat (you take them deep sea fishing ?)

    😭 2300 is toooooo far away !!!

    I hate the waiting for a surprise reveal 😬

    Unless I’m in on the secret 😕
    Then I have all the patience in the world 😁

    But nooooooo, I have to wait like everyone else 😟
    Your coworker 😤

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      1. 😣 Et tu Vinnious ? No more chicken treats for you !
        I gotta take Stewie for a walk and head down the road..
        Whatever the surprise is, I’ll be glad when clock chimes 11.. That IS 2300 eastern daylight savings time, RIGHT ? You’re cutting into my beauty sleep you know 🤦
        Well when I’m not driving at night that is..
        I have some surprises coming on the 22nd 🙃

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  4. Hi,
    I like dogs too. I had three but one died so now I have two. I have also blogged about how wonderful it is to make blogging friends. I am having a party on my site right now where you could come and make more blogging friends.
    Maybe you can check out my blog if you need any Blogging Tips. That’s what I write about.

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