Walk Along The Lonely Street Of Dreams

I don’t know where I’m goin
But I sure know where I’ve been
Hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday.
An’ I’ve made up my mind, I ain’t wasting no more time
But here I go again, here I go again.

Tho’ I keep searching for an answer
I never seem to find what I’m looking for.
Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on
‘Cause I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An’ I’ve made up my mind, I ain’t wasting no more time.

Just another heart in need of rescue
Waiting on love’s sweet charity
An’ I’m gonna hold on for the rest of my days
‘Cause I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known.
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone.
An’ I’ve made up my mind, I ain’t wasting no more time
But here I go again, here I go again,
Here I go again, here I go.

An’ I’ve made up my mind, I ain’t wasting no more time.

Here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
‘Cause I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
Goin’ down the only road I’ve ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An’ I’ve made up my mind, I ain’t wasting no more time
But here I go again, here I go again,
Here I go again, here I go,
Here I go again.

Here I Go Again – Whitesnake

I think this song describes my outlook on life in such a deep and compelling way it’s almost eerie. I find myself looking back at moments I wish I had made different decisions, but then I realize if I had chosen a different path I’m not sure it would have been better. But one things for sure, I aint wasting no more time. The past is past, nothing can be changed now.

 The strength from within keeps me moving forward, never again will I fall prey to the weakness of the past. Never again will I allow the sins of the flesh overpower my aspirations for a better life. I am stronger than the pull of the salve that hides the truth of happiness. Nothing good is ever easy, nothing worth living is without effort. I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

 If I am to live this life alone, so be it. I am learning that the power to overcome starts inside each of us. Yes, assurances and buttressing from others can assuage fears of making incorrect decisions, but the truth of oneself can only be found from within. Only when you truly understand what makes you happy can you find your “Val Halla.” Only when you accept who you really are will you see the way to a peaceful life.

I have written many times about living a life on the sea, pulling away from the lure of the big lights of modern society and all it’s trappings. I felt if I saved enough money for the “Perfect” boat, all my problems would be set aside in the grace of the dream. Now with the slap of reality in my father’s death I see the shadow of age growing longer, the realization of the shortness of time pushing me to accept that I will never find the “Perfect” anything, never have exactly what the vision leads us to believe. It’s not a compromise, just reality. I can accept a smaller part of the overall dream now because some is better than none.

I may be just another heart in need of rescue, but if it never comes I will carry on. My hope for the future does not rest on the love from another, but on the love of oneself. If your not happy with the person you are, how can anyone be happy with you? If your not true to what you believe in, are you not deceiving others with a false image? Time has a way of shining a light on your shortcomings, but you have to embrace them to change who you are for the better.

The “only road I’ve ever known” is not the way to the fulfillment of my life and I know it. Grandiose plans with no hope of achievement is the road to discouragement, not a life of contentment. If your willing to give up all for the sake of some you may find it is enough. Is it not better to live half a dream instead on none? That is why I chose a smaller boat instead of waiting for the perfect one. What good is a dream if it’s never fulfilled?

Tomorrow I place the down payment not on the boat of my dreams, but the boat that will take me down the road to that dream. I realize the dream is not anything of this earth, but rather a state of mind. The dream is a connection with all the things I hold dear such as a connection with nature. The boat is nothing more than the vessel that puts me into the “thick of it” as it were where I can immerse myself in the beauty of what is free to all if you only stop to see it.

So here I go again on my own, walking down a different road than I’ve known. Like a drifter I may be born to walk alone, but I’ve made up my mind, I aint wasting no more time!

SailboatAlongTheBay

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17 thoughts on “Walk Along The Lonely Street Of Dreams

  1. We definitely have been down different journeys. I like reading your writing because you are honest about where you’ve been and still have dreams of where you are headed. Don’t you give up. If you want a big boat someday, get one. I do love what you said about it not being about things, but is more of a state of mind.

    I’ve been doing lots of thinking and reading on being happy just because. Happy that isn’t attached to anything else. No when’s or if’s or why’s attached. Sounds to me like what you are talking about here. Nature and happiness with one’s self and a small vessel. Great post.

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      1. The right things do come along at the right time if we allow them to. You have really wrestled with your demons to let your dreams take root and begin to bud and flower and fruit. This makes me very happy 😊

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