It’s Not Having What You Want, It’s Wanting What You’ve Got

My friend the communist
Holds meetings in his RV
I can’t afford his gas
So I’m stuck here watching tv

I don’t have digital
I don’t have diddly squat
It’s not having what you want
It’s wanting what you’ve got

I’m gonna soak up the sun
I’m gonna tell everyone
To lighten up, I’m gonna tell ’em that
I’ve got no one to blame
For every time I feel lame
I’m looking up

I’m gonna soak up the sun
I’m gonna soak up the sun

I’ve got a crummy job
It don’t pay near enough
To buy the things it takes
To win me some of your love

Every time I turn around
I’m looking up, you’re looking down
Maybe something’s wrong with you
That makes you act the way you do

I’m gonna soak up the sun
I’m gonna tell everyone
To lighten up, I’m gonna tell ’em that
I’ve got no one to blame
For every time I feel lame
I’m looking up

I’m gonna soak up the sun
While it’s still free
I’m gonna soak up the sun
Before it goes out on me

Don’t have no master suite
But I’m still the king of me
You have a fancy ride, but baby
I’m the one who has the key

Every time I turn around
I’m looking up, you’re looking down
Maybe something’s wrong with you
That makes you act the way you do
Maybe I am crazy too

I’m gonna soak up the sun
I’m gonna tell everyone
To lighten up, I’m gonna tell ’em that
I’ve got no one to blame
For every time I feel lame
I’m looking up

I’m gonna soak up the sun
Got my 45 on
So I can rock on

Soak Up The Sun – Sheryl Crow

I’m making it my life’s goal to only want what I’ve got, and nothing more. Constantly wanting something more, as our consumer based society reinforces, is nothing but an endless circle of want and lust for more. Never are you truly satisfied because more shiny objects are placed before you by the ad agency’s that entice us from an early age. Each object is made so poorly in an effort to facilitate it’s easy demise and replacement. How is a pickup truck that won’t last any longer than one of five years ago worth twice as much? It’s not, you just fall for the shiny object.

So why is that? It’s called “Instant Gratification” and a few other psychological factors. The excitement of buying something new is so powerful, almost a physical high when you drive off the lot in a new car. The smell of a new leather jacket, the feel of new gloves. A new piece of furniture, the latest smartphone. There was nothing wrong with the “Old” ones, but this is the latest! Sucker!!! All manufacturers count on your knee jerk reactions to the latest and greatest. The Iphone 6 to the 7 has very little change, yet you have to get it. That’s another $700.00 down the drain. Dumbass!

The sailboat I bought is 43 years old! That’s right, it’s older than many of my followers! If you look closely it has many scratches, it needs paint and the systems are not working properly. By the time I am done fixing everything will have invested at least $25,000 not including the purchase price. I will have more invested than it’s worth when I’m done, so why? Because when I’m done I’ll have exactly what I want, not some shiny new boat that will lose it’s luster just as fast but at 4 times the cost! That’s right, a new 30 foot boat with all the gear I will have would cost over $100,000! No thanks.

No, my life is going to change drastically starting tomorrow. First thing in the morning, after a dental visit, I am going to Probate Court in the county I live in to start the procedure of legally changing my name. Sounds pretty drastic right? Well let me give you some background. There are 2 people in the state of Maine with the same exact name and same exact birth date, and I’m one of them! That’s right, exactly the same.

I have had my license revoked, my car impounded and my credit destroyed several times in my adult life due to the confusion of me with the other person. We even applied for the same job at the same time once! (He got the job!) I have thought long and hard about this, I even asked my mother if she was ok with changing my name. I think it’s time for this and more in my life. It’s time for a complete change.

Along with this I am going to start a new blog, and when that’s done I will completely delete this one. Every post, comment and follower. This blog has been nothing short of therapy for me. I have shown the world all of my inner self, exposed all my secrets, put forth every demon torturing my soul. Through it all I have met some incredible people, found friends I didn’t think were out there. Even though we have never actually met, I feel your presence when you comment and like my posts, and I thank you.

But don’t worry, I will provide the new address when the time comes, and I think I know the chosen few who will follow me again. I think we all know most of our “Follows” are nothing but people trying to entice a follow from us. They never like or comment other than the first visit then evaporate into the ether of the web. I always look at their blogs, and follow if I’m interested, but most are not what interests me so I move on. I truly only follow about 8 others, and you know who you are.

I think I have reached the turning point in my life, the moment when I can let go of the past and embrace the future I will pursue with my whole heart and mind. I’m going to soak up the sun, tell everyone to lighten up, and enjoy what I’ve got which is nothing more than I need to live a fulfilling life.

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45 thoughts on “It’s Not Having What You Want, It’s Wanting What You’ve Got

  1. Hi! I have always enjoyed your posts even though I don’t often leave a reply–I’m not a very techy person and I don’t have a blog of my own for you or anyone else to follow. I will continue to follow you on your new blog if thats ok with you–I am interested in your progress in your life and with your new/old sailboat that you will be restoring and I wish you well in achieving your goals. I found it very interesting that you are changing your name–under the circumstances I don’t blame you though. What process will you use to select a new name? Will you change your entire name or just your first name or your middle name. I have never known anyone who changed their name–other than a woman who marries of course. It”s an interesting thought–what name would I pick for myself ( a first name that is–I like my family name)–we name our children and our pets–but what name would we pick for ourselves?!! Something to ponder!!

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  2. I changed my name once for reasons I will write of one day. It was necessary and not for the sweetest of reasons. I changed it again when I married. Both times were cathartic and I am sure this shedding you are going through will be as cleansing for you. And I hardly need tell you I’ll still be following whatever your name, whatever your blog address. Because I want to and because you are something quite rare in my life. An actual and real friend. Go gently my pilgrim 🙂

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  3. ps …. would you send me an email – it doesn’t need any content but I am without WiFi and fighting with the suppliers which is aggravating and depressing. So am reliant on phone and your email is not stores stored in its library. So much for the cloud …. I prefer real ones anyway! But I would like to drop you a line offline as it were ☺🐾🐾

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  4. I about fell over when I saw you’re getting a new blog. Good for you!! Sometimes it’s necessary to move on. But, don’t forget all the wonderful things about this blog. Vinny the Super Dog, your AMAZING posts about honoring your courageous father, sharing your beautiful pictures of Maine and on the road, the posts of taking care of your parents. There are a lot of positives here and your stories are what draw readers in. Your next one will be just as great. And, you’re stuck with me, by the way!

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  5. do you think your dad would be hurt to know that you are changing your last name or would he be ok with it. Would you lose a connection with him–carrying his last name and all

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    1. Simple firms filed at the court. They place an add in the local paper in case you are trying to duck the law or a bill, then approve it after a hearing. Once thats done I will receive the forms for the state and federal government.

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  6. thats great–they were/are very understanding parents. I was also curious–is the person with your very same name and birth date(such a rare thing) a relative–such as a cousin

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  7. As this blog disappears over the sunset, the new one sails into view.. 💛
    I hate to see it go and look forward to the new adventures.. Feeling like a yo yo.. But can’t help but to follow 😄
    I’ll be glad for you when you get that deadbeat out of your life for good.. What a horrible black cloud over your head.. With all the crap he’s caused in your life, it’s him who should be forced to change his name..

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  8. Hi John and hope you’re still getting these comments. I couldn’t get the link to work on your last post here and new site so I’m hoping you’ll comment on a post of mine so I can follow you back. I’d love to keep in touch with you.

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