For There’ll Be Peace When You Are Done

Carry on my wayward son
For there’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more

Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond the illusion
I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I’m dreamin’, I can hear them say

Carry on my wayward son
For there’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man, it surely means that I don’t know
On a stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about I’m like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune, but I hear the voices say

Carry on my wayward son
For there’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more

Carry on, you will always remember
Carry on, nothing equals the splendor
Now your life’s no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you

Carry on my wayward son
For there’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more

Carry On Wayward Son – Kansas

Today is the 2 year anniversary of this blog and my quest for some sense of peace. Finding an outlet for all the confused feelings and thoughts has been nothing short of a miracle, and I’m close to what I feel will give me some closure to the sins of my past. As I drove along today I was reflecting on this past 2 days off. I went to Portland and filed the papers to change my name, visited my mom and took her out to lunch, and went to a social gathering of people who live on their sailboats. There was over 70 boats there and over 150 people.

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I went because I was invited by a fellow blogger couple that lives in Maine during the summer, then lives on their boat down south during the winter. They were also the hosts of this meeting, and as such had alot to do during the engagement. I wanted to speak at length with them but they were far to busy for that, and all but 2 others barely even looked at me during my time there. I did not feel very good about this group or the cold shoulder I received when trying to engage some in conversation. The 2 people that did talk are fellow Mainers who dock their boat at the other marina in Winterport just a mile or so away from where I will call home. I guess this wasn’t a total loss as I will look them up soon as I enjoyed their enthusiasm about boating. Rockland Harbor was really full with all the boats. This is just a small amount of them.

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It’s also cool to see the working yards that repair commercial vessels. The chain links that haul the boats up the ramps are as big around as my head!

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All in all it was still a nice day, and any time I drive along the coast I feel better. I’m only $3000.00 away from paying off my boat, and I should make the last payment by September 1st and have it moved to Winterport by the third week. By the end of September I will have paid a years storage in advance and then I can begin the refit process. I almost can’t believe I have a boat, and everything is starting to fall into place. My insecure side is waiting for the other shoe to fall, like it has so many times in the past, but what I notice now is that feeling fades much quicker than it used to, it’s not as powerful as in the past.

I knew absolutely no one at that function, yet I went anyway. That was a big step for me! I don’t do well in crowds unless I can focus on just a few people, and the 2 that I spoke with made my visit worthwhile. The last few years have been full of things I couldn’t bring myself to do in the past. I’ve pushed myself into uncomfortable situations to help overcome the urge to be a complete recluse. It’s not really people I dislike but society as a whole. I think modern culture has been drawn down into a world of selfishness and disdain for anything that doesn’t fit what some call “Social Justice” or some other such tripe. I believe all people should be treated fairly but I feel we may be straying a little to far “Left” for my tastes.

But enough of that, the last thing I want to do in litter this blog with politics. Soon I will separate myself as much as possible from all that and live the way I want, within bounds of reason, away from the society I am not comfortable in. I will surround myself with all the things that come naturally to this earth, and try and bring to you all that I experience through words and pictures. Check out this story I found on the web by a couple who sailed along Maine’s coast. Fantastic pictures and writing!  Sailing The Maine Coast

Here’s another PS: I did something Friday that I had been thinking about for years, but never had the nerve! This is just the beginning with alot more to come!

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I must be crazy!!!

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18 thoughts on “For There’ll Be Peace When You Are Done

  1. I do t do well in large gatherings. Read I g your post reminds me why. But it also, more importantly reminds me of the fact that there I my ever need be one decent soul with whom to connect to make the outing worthwhile. I’m not interested in volume sales…. I’m more boutique by nature, as are you ☺ btw the tatoo brings tears to my eyes. If pure joy. Email on it’s way to my new named pilgrim friend 😊

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  2. nice sentiment on your tattoos–did you know that a persons first tattoo is considered to be a “gateway” tattoo–once a person takes the leap to actually have a tattoo applied, more will generally follow, especially if the feedback on the first one is good–so I expect we will indeed be seeing more!

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  3. something else–I wouldn’t stop attending the type of function that you attended just because you only connected with a few individuals. Most people tend to sit with and socialize with those they already know–but if you have a friendly demeanor (which I’m sure you do), look for another person who appears to be new or alone and just say to them “is this seat taken?” and most will be happy to have your company. You never know where you will find your next best friend. Go for it!

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