Peace Of Mind

Now if you’re feelin’ kinda low ’bout the dues you’ve been paying
Future’s coming much too slow
And you wanna run but somehow you just keep on stayin’
Can’t decide on which way to go
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind

Now you’re climbin’ to the top of the company ladder
Hope it doesn’t take too long
Can’tcha see there’ll come a day when it won’t matter
Come a day when you’ll be gone

I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind

Take a look ahead, take a look ahead, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah…

Now everybody’s got advice they just keep on givin’
Doesn’t mean too much to me
Lot’s of people out to make-believe they’re livin’
Can’t decide who they should be

I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind

Take a look ahead, take a look ahead. Look ahead

Peace Of Mind – Boston

It’s taking every bit of my self control to stay where I am right now instead of running off to the future I so wish to live. So many trials and losses, so many disappointments and sad endings weighing heavily on my heart, indecision tearing away at me like a rabid dog. I cry and bleed at the bites and bruises yet I’m still here in the rut I have made for myself through past decisions. I ignored my instincts then, but this time I will not.

The hardtop of my Jeep during restoration

In the past I tried to move up the ladder of perceived success at this company or that, only to find that it really didn’t matter in the long run. No matter how hard you work, no matter how much you care, your still just a number in the big picture of any business. Spreadsheets rule the day, accountants push the buttons, and unless your the owner you never know when your last day will be. The only competition I want at this point in my life is between me, myself and I.

After restoration and coated with tinted truck bed liner

As I continue to restore my Jeep for my planned escape from all that tears me down, I continue to get advice from many who wish me goodwill, hope only to help in some certain way. I accept any and all ideas with thanks, apply much of their words to my actions, but deep down I am following my gut instincts this time wherever they may lead. Some dismiss my plan offhand as foolhardy, giving up all that I can’t fit into my vehicle, others halfheartedly wish they could come along. Indecision rips at us all sometimes but my mind is set, my will strong. I will find my peace of mind, somewhere I truly belong, and I will follow my heart to the destiny my soul is searching for.


12 thoughts on “Peace Of Mind

  1. Peace of mind can be an elusive state of mind to find. Often when we think we’ve ffound it something else comes along to shatter it. But persevere my friend. You know you’re on the right path. I wish you well.

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  2. Spreadsheets shouldn’t rule the way they do, problem is, if they are ignored only disaster ensues. Not every trip can be calculated to be the same every time. I just did a trip where I didn’t take the cheap route because I thought earlier problems ate away the available time. All the planning I can get my hands on, and still things go another way.

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  3. What would our lives be without dreams? They are what keep us waking up every morning and looking forward to the next stage, whatever that might be. My Nana used to say “there are no pockets in a shroud”. The happiest countries in the world are not the richest. Keep enjoying that Jeep and all the dreams. K x

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    1. Indeed I will Kerry. My new furry friend and I will have many great adventures traveling the country without the pressures of time constraints. Many pictures to be taken, many fields to be walked in, how many trails to be hiked. I so relish friends like you and a few others and look forward to sharing the craziness!

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  4. JDR: I think it’s great. I used to have a rule that I didn’t own what I couldn’t put in my truck, then I got married. After going through a “stuff” phase, I’m back to liking minimalism…hard to get lots of stuff on a boat that you just don’t need. I’m around if you ever need anything, especially here on the West Coast-

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