Round Here

Step out the front door like a ghost
into the fog where no one notices
the contrast of white on white.
And in between the moon and you
the angels get a better view
of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.
I walk in the air between the rain
through myself and back again
Where? I don’t know
Maria says she’s dying
through the door I hear her crying
Why? I don’t know

Round here we always stand up straight
Round here something radiates

Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand
she said she’d like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis
and she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land
just like she’s walking on a wire in the circus
she parks her car outside of my house
and takes her clothes off
says she’s close to understanding Jesus
and she knows she’s more than just a little misunderstood
she has trouble acting normal when she’s nervous

Round here we’re carving out our names
Round here we all look the same
Round here we talk just like lions
But we sacrifice like lambs
Round here she’s slipping through my hands

Sleeping children better run like the wind
out of the lightning dream
Mama’s little baby better get herself in
out of the lightning

She says, “It’s only in my head.”
She says, “Shh I know it’s only in my head.
But the girl on the car in the parking lot
says, “Man you should try to take a shot.
can’t you see my walls are crumbling?”
Then she looks up at the building
and says she’s thinking of jumping
She says she’s tired of life
she must be tired of something

Round here she’s always on my mind
Round here hey man got lots of time
Round here we’re never sent to bed early
And nobody makes us wait
Round here we stay up very, very, very, very late

I can’t see nothin’, nothin’, round here.
You catch me if I’m falling.
You catch me if I’m falling.
You catch me cause I’m falling down on you
I said, “I’m under the gun…”
Round here.
Oh, man, I said, “I’m under the gun…”
Round here.
And I can’t see nothin’, nothin’.
Round here.

Counting Crows – Round Here

Have you ever had the feeling you don’t belong? A gut instinct telling you to travel a different road? A sense that your life’s goal is just within reach if you could just pull it into focus and see the path that leads you there? The endless search for a purified contrast between wrong and right, and the ability to choose the right stones that will support your destiny? These things sometimes bring you to the brink of giving up, yet a voice in your head tells you….”just one more step.” Follow that voice.

Maria left behind all she knew, took a chance and hoped for the best because she had a dream and it consumed her being. The past was replaced by the tightrope of the unknown, a willingness to reach for something new and hopeful. And yet she cried for past ease and comfort. Nothing in life is free, there is a price to be paid for every goal. Learn that lesson well and you will be rewarded through perseverance.

Society paints us with the same brush, each person is a line on this study or that poll. Numbers dictate the “will of the people” even if it doesn’t fit your idea of a full life. So why then do you still persist with the crowd? Not me, no not me. I shall not follow the norm. I will be me.

The tightrope we walk is surrounded by well meaning people that think they have the answers. Much thought has been applied to the systems and ideals they feel will bring about a equal and unbiased society, equality for all they say. Time has shown this idea to be nothing but folly, the able and connected few always end up on top while the many suffer. We will sacrifice like lambs for the ideology of the fools we embrace if were not careful.

I feel the draw of as much independence as I can muster. An urge to control my life and follow what my heart tells me is the best use of my time on this earth. Once a day passes you by there is no recovery. No changing the outcome, no altering the choices made and the sometimes problematic results. I feel wisdom is defined as the ability to make the best with what you are given each day and I strive to improve my ability as best I can

The urge to give up can be a powerful foe, gnawing at you relentlessly until you start to feel like you have nothing left. The foundations of your existence crumbling before you as you face the onslaught of daily life in this cruel world. Never give in, never back down or fail you shall. Nobody said life was easy so focus on the beauty of each sunrise, bask in the glory of each sunset, and remember tomorrow holds no sway over today. Tomorrow is another chance to get it right.

13 thoughts on “Round Here

  1. Wow…so many avenues…Let’s start with industries that forbid you to think for yourself because the governing office people have figured out what’s best for you. Then all the people who say ” You believe ‘that’ ,so you must believe ‘that,that,that, &that”. Then the people who say “You did (that) then, so you deserve nothing.” Very few want you to have the ability to take care of yourself independently, because they lose power if you don’t need them.

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      1. With the recent change in jobs and the resulting turmoil I have had no time for reading or writing as of late. Plans are under way to remove the obstacles impeding my progress and I plan to writ about it all next weekend. I hope your plans are going well and I appreciate your thoughts.

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    1. I understand that struggle as you do. Keeping ones focus can be so hard at times it’s like an insurmountable hill. Yet if you slow down and look further you can find the pass that will lead to a better life full of promise.

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      1. JDR, it’s cold everywhere back there but probably worse in Maine. Are u still in Maine? How’s your mom and the new puppy doing ? New job a good change? We’re still living on the boat hauled out on the hard right now- stay cool and warm? And off the centerline. If you ever get a west coast delivery let me know so we can burn a steak together and open some wine!

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      2. 18 yesterday but 32 this morning! Yes I am back in Maine at another new job (story coming soon) and mom is holding her own. Had a lot on my plate this past month but things should settle down now. I appreciate your thoughts my west coast friend.

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  2. Equality for all, down at the bottom of the pile, while the greedy up at the top add to their wealth and buy a new luxury yacht, or a new property that they never live in.
    Keep on keeping on John!

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