I Must Be Invincible

This bloody road remains a mystery.
This sudden darkness fills the air.
What are we waiting for?
Won’t anybody help us?
What are we waiting for?


We can’t afford to be innocent
stand up and face the enemy.
It’s a do or die situation – we will be invincible.


This shattered dream you cannot justify.
We’re gonna scream until we’re satisfied.
What are we running for? We’ve got the right to be angry.
What are we running for when there’s nowhere we can run to anymore?


We can’t afford to be innocent
stand up and face the enemy.
It’s a do or die situation – we will be invincible.


And with the power of conviction there is no sacrifice.
It’s a do or die situation – we will be invincible.

Won’t anybody help us?
What are we running for when there’s nowhere
nowhere we can run to anymore?


We can’t afford to be innocent
stand up and face the enemy.
It’s a do or die situation – we will be invincible.
And with the power of conviction there is no sacrifice.
It’s a do or die situation – we will be invincible.


We can’t afford to be innocent
stand up and face the enemy.
It’s a do or die situation – we will be invincible.

Invincible – Pat Benetar

I’ve been running most of my life and I’m tired of relinquishing power to my enemy. The enemy I face comes from within and I must stand up and defeat it or it will defeat me. The enemy is stealthy and cunning, discrete and sinister. Evil in it’s intent, my enemy can cause me to back away from conflict and cower from the fist of life’s trials as a dog runs from a cruel owner. My enemy is self doubt and depression.

This enemy can cause me to fail at things I should find easy to overcome, backing away from people and places that should bring forth happiness and contentment. Hiding away to avoid the triggers is like walking backwards down a dark hallway as the light of my life dims to the point of darkness. Many times I have reached this point and dragged myself back from the brink, many times I have held on in the hopes of something better. It’s a do or die situation…I must be invincible.

I can’t afford to be weak, there’s no backing down now. With the power of conviction I will sacrifice all to gain the self reliance I need to live a better life. All that is familiar and comforting, all that props me up and holds me to the same old way of existence will be sacrificed in the name of confronting the demons that own my soul. I will leave it all behind, I will stand up and face the enemy.

I can’t afford to wait any longer as this enemy is strong and bold. Powerful in it’s persuasion my will is chipped away a piece at a time pushing me to give in to it’s strength as I have done in the past. I have forced myself into a path that I cannot easily back out of in the name of progress, given up all that binds me to the past mistakes.

There is nowhere I can run to anymore but the future that I hope will lead to peace in my mind. I am not sure of the ultimate outcome of my endeavor but I feel a sense of giddiness and hope, glee mixed with trepidation. I am less than a year away from cutting the bonds of a life less fulfilled and embarking on an unknown journey that may end in disaster or beauty. I can’t afford to be innocent anymore, I must face my demons and find a better life.

3 thoughts on “I Must Be Invincible

  1. Bob Seeger’s “Tightrope” just popped into my head…
    What’s that saying? “Living well is the best revenge “? Failure only means the dickheads won…

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